Just a warning, this post gets a bit personal.
So I can definitely say that 2015 was a year of trials.
My disposition at the very start was somewhat good. But it all went downhill when I was struggling with my thesis and eventually didn’t make the cut. Imagine following your dream wholeheartedly and putting all of yourself into something then getting denied. Like I have said before, I was crushed, devastated by all this. But after that turn of failure, my disposition in life and my emotions were out of place. But not to a point that I would purposefully fail my other classes because of depression–because I am not stupid like that.
I remember the time I arrived home in Cebu after my “failure”, then I saw my parents and I started crying as I entered the house, telling them I was so sorry for what happened to me as they started to console me. That “failure” stuck on me for weeks, I would catch myself crying in bed at night and start overthinking everything and wondering what could have been if I did things differently during the wee hours of the morning.
But as it started to sink in, I got to see what this”failure” of mine really was, it was an opportunity for me to reconnect with my family but most of all, my friends who I haven’t connected with in awhile and of course for me to refresh and strategise my life–and all that comes in between. The past four or years for me was spent studying religiously for tests and creating tons of projects. Although I loved every minute of it, but all of that made it hard for me to go home and simply relax, I hadn’t really spent enough time with my other friends, the ones who have been with me for almost half of my life. Some people might call it plain chance or luck, that I was given this opportunity to be home because 2 of my closest friends moved out of town to work and do further studies abroad, which the break gave me a chance to spend more quality time with them before the painful goodbyes.–Hi Nic and Mel! ❤
So by the end of April, after my 21st birthday, I decided to take a break for almost 4 months. But not totally, I had to work on my apprenticeship, start working on my thesis–for the second time, spend time being home and travel a bit. There is something about being home that is really good. But not permanently… Just when you need to fix yourself a bit.
Lets not forget that I started my beauty blog on the first of May on Blogger then it continued to grow to what it is today and will continue to grow (hopefully) into something rewarding and wonderful.
This year, my mom and I got to take a cheeky trip to Europe before all the migrant crisis creeped in. I blogged about my trip and showed a bunch of photos, see them here! We wanted to go so many places but then we realized that it would be unlogical to bounce to far away locations for a limited amount of time. So we planned our route within a certain region. And what I loved most was that it was all places have never been to. I travelled to Lake Como, Lucerne, Milan and Florence. And I had such a great time with my mom, we made memories that I would never forget and treasure so close to my heart–I know you are reading this, Mom! You know I love you.
So when I entered university once again after my long break, I was prepared for my thesis and I was finally back in the right head space. From the very first week of them term, my eyes were set on the prize. I followed all the requirements and put everything I know into writing. Those three months flew by before my eyes. I can’t believe I was the very first student to pass the thesis revalida on the first try, which took a huge weight of my shoulders.
And of course, I like to my year not with a fizzle but with a bang. By the time I checked my results then I pleasantly surprised that my grades made me qualified to be on the dean’s list once again!
Right now, I am writing this a night before Christmas Eve back in my hometown.
What is yet to come?
I will be attending my very last term in university this year and hopefully graduate by June. After graduation, I plan to travel for a few months or take short courses in design somewhere in Europe just to keep my head busy–the good kind. And hopefully, by the end of the year, I would have a firm to get experience from.
So you can say that 2015 was definitely an eventful year for me, good and bad. But I am thankful as hell for everything. All this has had me realize that I am much stronger than I thought I was. It showed me that when I fall, I come back up even stronger and add more fuel to the fire within me–DRAMA.
Anyway, to my family, friends and as well as my readers, thank you for being part of my 2015. I am so blessed to have people who are always rooting for me in the best way possible.
How did 2015 treat you?
** All photos in the this post are either royalty free(Pexel.com) or taken from my Instagram. **